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March  27, 2000
Hi, good morning. I am writing this email again but I rather not send it because I know you would not like the content.
I had been waiting for your email again. I remembered you assured me that you will try your best to send me email as much as possible. Weekend passed-by, you were at home the whole Sunday. Will a simple and short email can waste your time that much? I know you still care but you do not want also to initiate because you are afraid it will start on something again. I understand you. For now, just take care of yourself, always. Please take your vitamins, proper meal and avoid going home early morning. Also, if you will allow me to say this, take note of your dress, especially when your dress has buttons in front. Keep your beautiful breast secret inside there :).
Meh? Do not worry. I will be fine. I will take care of myself because I do not want you to get worried. Good day sweetheart.

March 28, 2000

Good morning! I guess you are too busy with your works. I want to remind you that my e-mal address is [email protected], in case you already forgot it : )
I hope you're fine, really. Me, I am not. I still think of you a lot. It takes me great effort not to send you email and not to call you. I missed your rings and your emails. I am still waiting for your emails as you promised. Do you still miss your friend? Do you still miss me? Is it pride or you really hate me a lot that's why you seem not to care anymore?
Take care always sweetheart. You are always in my heart and mind… always.

Good evening! You know I always carry my cellphone in case you want to know how I am doing.
I hope you're getting better in your office. I pray that you get a lot of clients and I pray too that you be happy with where you are. I always pray for your safety. Good luck and I want to wish you all the best in the world. Keep it up, friend.

Good evening again. Yah, I wrote this email after we talked tonight. As usual, I am glad to hear your voice. I am sorry I cut the conversation because I have to admit I am deeply hurt. I thought you will never never abandon me. I made your life miserable... but I am begging for your forgiveness and let's start all over again, this time, I am not gonna hide from anybody.
Everybody deserves a second chance. I know now how much I need you in my life. I promise I am not going to be a hindrance to your career. I feel like I am not gonna live properly without you. I am so in love with you. How a so precious love can turn into hatred?  I know I cannot do anything anymore knowing that someone hates me so much, the same person who used to love me so much! What shall I do to make you come back to me? I need your love, I need you more than anything else.
I am not going to take away your dreams, your career and your pride. It will not be your weakness to let me in into your heart again.
My heart is broken, more than when I met you. You made me live again, now your taking back my life from me. How can I make you understand? How can I melt your stone-hard heart? You used to be the girl who cares for me. What is the thing we call "best of friends"? You vowed that we will be best of friends? Didn't we?
I respect your decision but I deserve to know what's the reason why you don't even want to see me anymore. Are you afraid that you might fall to me again? If you still love me, why suppress it? Let it flow… let your love show (again)… love me, take me.

For you, my friend - Pal, and for all the folks who already visited this website,  thank you very much for your attention.  It may take me long time before I can update this site again, or maybe never - God only knows. For now, I am very sick and cannot concentrate anymore. My life now is worthless. I dreamed so much for you and me, Pal. My mistake is I never told you anything about it. Now, like my dream of becoming a composer, all my dreams will never never come true anymore. PRAY FOR ME!